Its All Come Crashing Down

It all seems to have come crashing down since my last entry.  Don't really know why exactly, but something to do with - the more I have been doing for Mum, the more I find out how badly she is functioning and how much needs doing.  So calling in help now, from family and professionals.  I probably can't face the reality of how bad its gonna get, or is that how bad it has got?  That, alongside - she thinks its all the same?!?!? Mind numbing.  Feels at the moment like being caught in a box with no way out.